Today, I want to share about something I experience on this journey of mine and I really don’t like it. It happens when I’ve spiraled all over the place and I don’t feel like a damn thing has shifted and I’m done being patient. I’m talking about it because maybe it’s happened for you, too. And if it hasn’t, I hope my sharing gives you permission to take this approach when you need to. I know if someone would have shared this with me years ago, it would have helped!
Every once in a while when I’ve been struggling for a long time, there’s nothing left to do and I simply have to have it out with the powers that be.
Sometimes people think that spiritual people are always positive, always seeing the larger meaning in things and they don’t experience “negative” emotions like anger, jealousy, and impatience. Let me tell you, as someone who’se been on a conscious spiritual path for 30 years, the truth is – spiritual people experience all of it. And it’s ok to have all the feelings and not know what to do about your life sometimes. It’s actually how we get to to the point of breakthroughs, you know? It’s messy, it’s raw and a place that I don’t like to go. But I find it’s an important part of the path and that’s why I’m sharing it with you.
There have been a few times in this life, I would say maybe 3 specific times, where I’ve gotten to the point where everything I tried to do, say or embody seemed to fail me. Times when I am at my wits end with doing all the things like energy work, prayer, mediation and patience, that I’m ready to blow a gasket because nothing was shifting! Times when I have opened my heart, gone to retreats, looked for larger meanings, waited, cried, asked for guidance, listened to guidance, rested, cleansed, surrendered. You name it, I did it and nothing would budge. It’s those moments, rare as they might be, where I am in excruciating pain and I feel I have no choice but to have it out with the powers that be.
And that’s exactly what I have done. It happened recently. Actually, it had been about 2 years of feeling stuck, looking for help to push me through in a certain area and it just wasn’t shifting. I got to the point where I was done doing all the “spiritual” things and I had a throw down with the universe. I cried and sobbed and got frustrated and got loud. I told the powers that be that I was DONE with waiting, trying and working to have a shift. I told them that not only did I want to receive help but I demanded it. (I don’t every demand things from the universe. I go with the flow, I ask, I make offerings, I show gratitude. But this time, I demanded there be a shift and that help be sent to me.) This whole process was emotional, draining and cathartic at the same time.
My whole body eased after I had it out with the universe. There was a silence that moved through me. Perhaps at this point, I reached a new level of surrender?
I remember it clearly because I was sitting in the hot tub, looking up at the sky and my heart and mind simply cleared. It was almost instantly that I had a brand new idea about a big project I was considering. It had been quite a while since I was inspired in this way and I knew something had opened for me.
Little by little, since that moment of having it out with the universe, there has been a real, true energetic adjustment occurring. The next day, a dear old friend of mine messaged me and unbeknownst to him, he offered a huge solution for me. I said yes and continue to say yes and each day I feel more open, in flow and trusting that a shift is truly occurring. It’s one that has been a long time coming and I am so grateful.
None of this would have happened if I hadn’t had it out with the universe. I’d still be in that lost, frustrated space if I denied my anger and resisted the urge to demand a shift from the powers that be.
Sometimes the right approach, the one that creates the biggest breakthrough and realignment, is one that doesn’t sound or feel very good in the moment. And when I go with it, I get what I need.
I wish this for you, my friend. When you’ve done all you can do and nothing is shifting. If you feel the urge to have it out with the powers that be – just do it. You’ll be so glad you did!
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